This is Me

The fact that I am back here writing must mean that I’m doing something and I want you all to know. Not exactly. I decided to commit to trying finish my todo list. Actually, there’s so much that is happening in my life that I really can’t explain. I hope to share with you my journey as I go along. I’m just happy that I’m writing again. Sometimes we feel like we aren’t capable writers. We think that what we write won’t make sense and that no one would bother reading it. Honestly, I’m just tired of doing that.

I admit that I haven’t been doing my blogging the way I want it to. Actually, I’m not really sure if I am blogging correcting. More like, this is just my journal entry to remind me of what’s going on and keep things in perspective.

I been reading… well I been trying to read, but now is not the time to make excuses. I workout three times a day and I work 10 hours a day. I still have so much time left that I never really knew where my time has went. So here I am trying to make a daily planner. I am making a weekly planner and a monthly planner. I may not be able to tackle everything that I set out to do, but at least I can figure out what I should be doing at that exact moment.

Let me tell you something though… fasting. I fail at it repeatedly. I think today I managed to eat from 2PM to 6PM, but I ate Wendy’s and then my boss gave me pasta. Then again, I worked out 3x so maybe that would justify it. I really hope to see myself eating from 6PM-10PM instead because I tend to fall asleep if eat anything regardless of the portion size.

So I guess what I really want to tell myself is to not care about the opinion of others. Be free. Do me. Grow. Fail and learn from those failures.


Feeling Lost In Love

I woke up this morning feeling lost. I felt confused because I’ve been wondering what I have been doing the past couple of years. It was in that moment when I start to realize that I’ve wasted so much time on developing myself as a person. I sought things that would make me happy and I have never fully accepted myself. I’ve ran away from problems and problems began to pile up instead of me facing it.

So I’m here… I’m here facing my problems and trying my best to get up and stand firm. It’s rough. Part of me wants to give up, but all of me wants to just get out of my situation. I’m tired of struggling. I’m tired of seeing people suffer because of me.

I’ve been trying my best best to grow as a person and find my purpose. I’m curious on knowing who I am. I’m curious on why I was born and what kind of success I will achieve. I think what’s important to me is getting closer to God. I have yet to have a firm faith that will lead me through all the struggles that may come my way.

So in writing this, I’m letting you all know that I’m not together. I’m facing problems myself but it will not stop me from doing my blogs. It will not stop me from trying to develop myself into the best person I need to be. I want to do this for me so I can be able to accept love and give love unconditionally.

New Year, New You

It’s been a while since I have posted anything lately. I’ve actually finished my workout programs, and I started to do it again. Unfortunately, I’m trying to figure out why I have not been consistent in going to the gym when I have been doing it for 3 months straight. I’m trying to figure out why is it that I don’t wake up 3:30AM in the morning.

I think I am at the point in my life where I’m just lost. I’m trying to figure out what is my purpose and in these times I find myself trying to grow as much as possible.

People talk about the new year as if that should be the starting point in trying to change. Some people tend to give up and wait for the next year to start again. Time is so precious it amazes me how much I actually waste it. Yet from trying to juggle so many things as once, I realize that my mind is scattered. At those times, it is important for me to sit still and listen.

Kris Gethin’s DTP – Day 22

It was that kind of day with chest & back. Today was that kind of day where I felt like I was testing my own limits.

It didn’t help that I set the alarm for 3:30AM to find myself slapping that snooze button as soon as it sounds. Sometimes I’m just lying in the dark freezing wondering if I even want to move. Yet what is it that successful people do? I’m starting to find that successful people do things that unsuccessful people don’t want to do. So that means if I’m unsuccessful and I don’t want to wake up, then I should wake up right? Guess what!? Yes, you guessed it! I went to sleep.

I then slept for a couple of more hours until I woke up around 5:30AM. Should I just workout out at night? Pondering that question would probably drain me more of my energy, so I decided to get up. If there’s one thing that I love first thing in the morning before I head to the gym is taking my preworkout. It gives me some crazy amount of energy to jolt my mind right away. If I don’t work out then I’m just going to be scratching my face off until I lift. Who knew I would love that feeling?

Upon arriving at the gym, I should have known it would be crowded. It didn’t stop me. I remember when I first stepped into the gym. I was shy and I hated being around people. Now I realize more than every, I don’t care. I actually love it! I love seeing so many different people working out. I love seeing people do different exercises and focuses on getting their gains. It just makes me motivated! Amazing right?

Kris Gethin’s DTP – Day 19

I think I lost my hearing. I can’t hear my alarm anymore. My body automatically wakes up at 3:30AM. It’s not 100% but I’m slowly able to program my life the way I want it to.

It’s cold… I’m always cold. I want to go back to bed, but my friend is hitting me up. I told him I would meet him at the gym at 4:30AM. I kind of don’t want to go that that gym. I like the new gym I go to. Why do I even have both memberships? I message him telling him that I’m still down to go. I sit in the char just staring at nothing but pitch black. I didn’t bother turning the lights on. It’s too much of a hassle to get up. Actually, I just don’t want anyone to know that I’m up.

Preworkout. BCAAS. These are the things I need to accompany me to the gym. I picked two empty gallons and filled one with half preworkout and the other a full gallon of BCAAS. I try to make sure I take my preworkout when I’m like 10 minutes from the gym. I hate waiting to scratch my face off so it’s easier for me to do it this way. My friend arrives. Off we go into the dungeons to fight our inner demons.

It’s an arm and ab day for this morning. Part of me feels like I know what I’m doing and the other part of me feels like I’m lacking in form. I feel a huge pump in my arms so I just be doing something right. With so many reps and so many sets within my supersets I feel like I couldn’t lift much. It came to the point where I actually had to throw my back into it just to get it up. I tried my best to do negatives slowly. Oh well.

HRT: Hell Raiser Training – Day 2

Twice a day workouts…. nothing planned. Insane? Maybe.

I like experimenting and I like using myself to see what works so that’s what happened when I decided to add a second workout program to my schedule. I was afraid that it would be crowded at the gym, but I was surprised to find that it was emptied out. Thank goodness!

It was leg day, and I know I did leg day two days ago with my other program but I was honestly excited. Unfortunately, I had no idea how to do hack squats and I ended up doing different leg varieties on the leg press machine. Oh well. I’ll make sure to ask my friend to show me how it’s done because I don’t want to risk any kind of injury what so ever.

I was afraid that I would no\t be able to get a good workout because I did not take any kind of supplements, but I managed to pull through. My legs were on fire though, yet as I type this I feel like I don’t feel anything. Maybe because I’m constantly drinking BCAAS throughout my day? Not sure.

Upon finishing my workout routine, I wanted to hit the elliptical to do some interval training. I ended up stopping after 10 minutes. I guess I was not motivated because I ended up stopping to find my AirPod case that I lost in the gym, and it messed up my whole flow. Excuses I know.

Kris Gethin’s DTP – Day 17

Winter is coming!

That’s what I though a couple of days ago. Weather has been weird that it started feeling a little more like Spring the past couple of days. I’m not complaining.

I woke up around 4:30AM and knew I had to get my workout in. It didn’t help that I figured I could add another workout routine into my days where I work out in the morning and at night. Honestly, I feel drained. I’m not sure if it’s because of the music or what, but I just want to sleep. It feels like that’s all I been doing right when get off work. Who knew that just sitting around could be so exhausting.

So for today’s chests and back I used barbells instead of using dumbbells. I’m not sure why, but it feels like I’m a lot better doing bench presses. There cam a moment where I was doing so much reps and then all of a sudden, I couldn’t lift it. I slowly put it on my chest and tried to slide it off my body. Funny. Well to me at the time it was. I don’t keep track of any macros nor do I take protein shakes. All I use for my workouts are BCAAS and my preworkouts.

I love working out.

Kris Gethin’s DTP – Day 15

Having someone to hold you accountable helps a lot especially when you need to wake up at 3:30 in the morning to workout. Except part of me wanted to like put my phone on do not disturb mode. Friends hitting me up left and right. Luckily, I was able to get up and take my energy drink before I headed to the gym.

You would think that at around 5AM the gym would be empty. I was wrong. The gym was packed. Packed with hungry wolves waiting to become an alpha through rigorous training. I met up with my fellow friends, and off we went inside. I wasn’t sure if they were going to be able to get in because they’ve all ready used their guest privileges from the day before. I was wrong yet again. They were able to get in. May this secret die with me.

We walked up the stairs as I used the Snapchat technology to document this occasion. Behold the weights and their former glory waiting for someone to take advantage of them. They looked at me weird of course when I told them I had to do leg presses for 490 reps. One by one we took turns, and then at 150 reps they deserted me leaving me by myself. Should I give up? Should I take off the weights and go lighter? No… I was in this for the long run. I killed it. I killed former self over and over until I couldn’t recognize the feeling in my legs. I was complete. I wasn’t done yet though. I wanted to kill more time so I hit elliptical to do some interval training. This feeling…. may it never leave my side.

Kris Gethin’s DTP – Day 13

Cardio, cardio, cardio… Not.

I was supposed to do cardio, but instead I’m here telling you that I did not do anything for cardio. If anything, I managed to hit 10,000 steps. For the sake of just saying I tracked my workout in my app, I decided to say I did but will incorporate it tomorrow after my workout.

That’s the thing though. Sometimes we’re just way too strict with ourselves. I feel like if we were more accepting with what goes on and focus on what we can do at that moment, things would be a lot better. I mean Thanksgiving just passed and I ate a lot. I don’t think the eating was the bad part to be honest. It was honestly the soda that I had. Yes, that’s right. I had “4” cans of soda and I’m not proud of myself. Which brings me to the question on what am I really trying to accomplish?

I honestly don’t like working for someone and I honestly don’t like being told what to do. I do happen to like helping people and I do happen to like listening to people talk about their problems. I guess I’ll ponder that for another time.

The point is that you should never be too hard on yourself if you miss a day where you couldn’t work out. I mean… if you didn’t hit the gym then just stop right now and do quick pushups or jumping jacks. Personally, anything is better than not doing anything at all.

Kris Gethin’s DTP – Day 9

After work I wanted to go to a different gym. I texted the guy, and he said he was going to call his co-workers to allow me to come in. I drive their and sat in the parking lot waiting for confirmation. I got nothing. Great… I continue to sit a couple of more minutes hoping that I would get a text. My pre-workout is kicking in. I’m itching. I’m scratching my face off. Forget this.

I drive to Giant Fitness again, and it’s crowded. Luckily, no one was using the machines that I needed to use. I notice people looking at me, but I don’t care. I need to get this done or else I’m just going to be scratching myself annoyed. I open up my app and look at what I did last week. I decided to do pyramids this time instead of sticking to one weight set the whole way through. My legs are dying.

The person next to me is moaning. It’s annoying me. I continue on with my workout. People are looking at me. Probably wondering why I’m still at the same machine for the past hour. It’s okay. I’m just following what I need to do. After I was done, my legs were so wobbly. Walking up the stairs felt so heavy. I wanted to laugh so bad because in a way it felt amazing.

I need gym clothes. Gym clothes are expensive. I wear the same gym clothes everyday. Don’t worry. I wash them, but I would to invest in some clothes eventually after I get a new wardrobe first.