Day 5 of Intermittent Fasting: Different Time

Today is actually my fifth day of trying intermittent fasting. For the past couple of days I’ve been fasting of 20 hours each day and breaking my fast from 6PM to 10PM. But for whatever reason I decided to break it an hour ago at 3PM by ordering some sushi. I was doing really well, but I’m hoping that if I stick to the 4 hour window I’ll still be fasting. (For those who have been doing IF for a while, please let me know.)

I think while I’ve been fasting I’ve been more aware of things. I think I am more conscious of my surroundings and more awake if that makes sense. I have more energy when I start my day and I’m not tired until I get home ready for bed. Maybe part of that has to deal with the fact that I’ve been trying to do 20,000 steps each day or trying to reach that amount. Right now, I am currently around 14,500 steps for today.

When I first attempted intermittent fasting, I was very skeptical of it. Actually, I don’t think I’ve stuck with IF for more than a day. I’d usually quit and just binge thinking it was useless. While on my fast, I don’t get to eat healthy yet because I can’t afford it. Seriously, I am struggling so much that I can’t even make my own meals so my girlfriend’s parents has been helping. My main goal is to discipline myself because I seriously lack it. So hoping tomorrow, I can get back on schedule with just eating form 6PM to 10PM.

A lot of people choose intermittent fasting for the sole purpose of trying to lose body fat. Even though that is my goal still, I think my primary focus is just trying to feel better. Trying to have more energy throughout the day without having to pop caffeine pills to keep awake. Thankfully walking has been able to keep me awake as well.

I wonder how I’ll feel after 30 days with the combination of my running intervals, calisthenics, intermittent fasting, and 20,000 steps each day. I’m turning 30 next month, but now when I look in the mirror I feel amazing. I wonder how I’ll a week from now or even a year.

I’m not really sure if intermittent fasting is the cure all for everything but I am also hoping that it will help with my anxiety. I get lots of anxiety where I feel uncomfortable around people sometimes. I also tend to get in a random mood swings from time to time. So many things that I want to work on but I’m hoping that this will lead to greater accomplishments down the line.

So have you tried intermittent fasting? How long have you been doing it? Any advice? They say everyone experiences fasting in different ways so I guess I’ll keep writing every other day when I can.

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Dear Future Self: Surrendering

Dear Future Self,

It’s me again…

Since the last time I wrote you, I think I managed to get a hold of things. I guess you probably forgot that you got lectured by your boss. I didn’t realize that I am so depressed. I thought that I was okay, but apparently other people can sense it that it was affecting my work progress. Crazy huh?

My boss is very worried and he’s worried to bring me on as a partner in the business if I’m not getting back to my old self. I guess I can’t really handle my emotions well. I ended up crying. Shameful…

Today, I managed to complete most of my todo list. I’m not sure what music you’re listening to, but just in case you ever feel down… listen to Big Bad Voodoo Daddy. I’m not sure what kind of music it is. It could be swing. It could be jazz. Either way, it uplifts me. It makes me want to dance.

I’m done making excuses for why our life is the way it is. No worries though. I’m taking action little by little. I guess any kind of action is better than not doing anything at all which is why I continue to write.

Make sure to never skip a workout whenever times are getting difficult. That’s what I’ve done and doesn’t actually help. If you can manage to just get up and go for a run, you’ll feel a lot better.

My boss says that I am constantly trading things and selling things to get other stuff because I’m looking for a quick fix on obtaining happiness. It was such an eye opener that I never thought of that behavior. I guess what I’m looking to do now is try to obtain happiness without binging on food and buying materialistic things. After all, it’s not really helping me financially and the burden is getting heavier.

Life is a puzzle. Well that’s how I want to view it at this moment. It’s a massive jigsaw piece that I’m trying to piece together. I’m going to be experimenting and experiencing new things hopefully. Whatever piece I do not want, then I’m going to toss it away. I probably won’t make sense by the time you read this, but it makes sense to me at this present moment.

Whatever you are doing…. don’t give up.

Dear Future Self

Dear Future Self,

It’s a tad bit awkward knowing that I’m writing this. I was originally supposed to just do a regular blog post talking about what kind of progress I’ve made throughout the week. It’s actually harder than it looks, so here I am writing to you in hopes that one day you’ll look back to remember the struggles you are going through.

My life has been a mess. I realized that the only person to blame is myself. I’ve made some idiotic mistakes that got me in this situation in the first place. I’m financially struggling and I can’t run anymore.

You’re probably in a good place right now or at least I hope so. I’m hoping that by the end of this year, I will be able to walk a path far better than this one. Right now, I have a wonderful girlfriend who’s been with me through everything.

She’s been with me through all my hardships, and I sometimes feel like I don’t deserve that kind of love. Afterall, I feel that she deserves someone better. Future self, if only you could give me some kind of hint on where I should go… this would be a lot easier.

It is in my hopes that the person I love is the person I’ll end up marrying because I know she sees a part in me that I don’t even see. So I guess, I’m trying here… Let’s face it. I wanted to give up. I wanted to stay in my comfort zone, but it just feels like I’m being pulled away from that more and more I try to stay in this little world of mine.

If you look back at this whether it’ll be tomorrow or a year from now. Please let me know how much I’ve progressed since writing you this.

It’s Not All About You; Engage Others

It’s a brand new week I’m off to a good start. I was able to do my running before I went to work. I was able to do my body weight training. I was able to do my miracle morning and then clean up the whole store.

So what’s my plan for this week? My plan is to be consistent with the content I’m posting but more importantly I think I want to start engaging with other people. I used to sit back and just get likes and comments. I would expect for people to like my posts, but I never replied back to people. What’s worse is that I would never comment other people’s posts either.

So starting today, I am hoping that I would spend at least 1 hour each day commenting people’s pictures or social media posts. People put effort to put content out there so the least we can do is interact. Social media was created so we connect with others, but sometimes we’re just seeking attention for ourselves only.

Day 1 – Running Towards My Fear

I woke up early and stared at my computer. I stared at my to-do list and figured that there’s no point. I probably procrastinated for a good hour of moping around and complaining about my current lifestyle.

I’m not sure what it was, but I knew that I couldn’t just sit still. If I really didn’t like the way my life was, then I had to do something about it. No one was going to help. Only I could help myself. Of course there’s going to be people who support me and people who want to help, but when it comes down to it…. you need to get up. So that’s what I did.

I went to go for a run and even though I haven’t ran the past couple of days. It felt amazing@! It felt amazing knowing i was able to accomplish one task which made me want to accomplish more.

Sure, my bills are looking bad right now but if I keep trying and keep being persistent then eventually they’ll all be eliminated and that’s what I have to stay focused on. I have to keep making small steps that will better my future.

How much can I progress?

Day 0 – My Life Down Under

Today, I wanted to just write about what’s going on my life. I realized I never really taken the time to write in a journal despite me creating blogs about my fitness journey.

Right now, I’m struggling. I am struggling to the point where I feel like I don’t know whether I can continue on or not. It makes me cry. It makes me furious. It feels like everything goes right and all of a sudden things hit the fan.

I was able to get my own car, but to find out two weeks later it broke down because of a transmission problem. It costs $1500-1650 to repair. Taking a look online to research whether it is worth it or not, I find out that the model I have is known to have lots of problems of breaking down. I end up trying to sell the car to the mechanic. They can offer only $500. Just my luck… I take there offer and still waiting for a call back.

My roommate is moving out saying something how I never clean up the house. I get more stressed because I used to clean everyday, but no one cleans up after there mess. I work 11.5 hours per day, and I’m never home. So I stopped.

The electricity bill gets cut off because my mom was behind.

I become stressed. I can’t think while at work, and my boss can sense it.

I barely have any money for food or anything. I realize that people stress more about the bills and debt because that’s what I’m doing. Taking my boss as my mentor and with the help of my girlfriend’s parents. I submit myself to God and his works while listening to the advice of others.

To Weigh or Not to Weigh Yourself

So I’m not sure if it’s because I ate earlier or what, but I decided to weigh myself for whatever reason it may of been. I was disappointed. I was disappointed to see that my weight went back up. I’m not sure if it’s because of the muscle mass I’ve been gaining or maybe it’s because I just ate. Who knows.. but what I do know is that people go through this everyday especially when we are all trying to hit a goal.

I mean we been constantly working out, and constantly trying to achieve our goals only to find a single number to determine what we should feel and determine our self worth. Personally, I don’t think I should ever look at a scale again. It’s really a matter of how I feel inside. If I feel great then why should I let anything or anyone say anything different?

Maybe that’s just me… but if you were in the same situation what do you do? How do you determine your worth in this world?

Becoming a Free Athlete

I was supposed to go running. I didn’t get to. I’m disappointed in myself. Even though I’m disappointed, I at least finished my body weight workouts. I’m quite proud of that. I’m proud that no matter what, I will do it no matter how much I have to pushing myself to continue. Sure… I may still have problems doing a full set of workouts at certain times, but I’m doing this for me. I’m competing against my own self so that I may become who I know I should become.

Instead of cowardly running away from challenges. I’m hoping that I can learn to embrace them. I am hoping that no matter how much I have to break my outer shell, I’ll end up looking forward to becoming my best self. What about you? If you feel like you are not getting anywhere in life, then I’d say start exercising. You may of not have exercised before or done it in so long, but just get your body to create momentum so it knows that you are willing to do anything to accomplish your dreams and aspirations.

Take a Break

It seems that everyday I wake up, people all around are so busy trying to get to their destination. No one really takes the time to enjoy the journey. We’re all competing to win the race, but we never take the time to enjoy the ride along the way.

The world isn’t getting any better, and the things that we should be appreciating we actually take for granted. I’m one of those people who failed to realize it. So as I’m out looking at the city, I’m only one person trying to accomplish my own dreams. One person trying to find out what it is I really want to achieve.

Once we get to the finish line, can we really look back and see wall that we done. Do we know what it was like when we struggled. Do we know the feeling of the pain we had to endure and the sacrifices we had to make along the way to get where we wanted to be?

Enjoy life to the fullest. Don’t let your race be a moment not remembered.

Running Towards Victory

If I had a preference on when it came to running, I would personally say I love doing it first thing in the morning. There’s a sense of accomplishment you get when you get done your run. It basically sets the day for me knowing that I want to accomplish more.

I think that as I start to develop myself, it’s time to focus more on what I really want to accomplish within these couple of months. At this present moment… where is it that I stand? Where is it that I want to go? What do I need to do at this very moment in order to take the next step towards reaching my goals?

I used to feel like I had to do at least one blog per day. I felt like I had to do one video and upload it per day. I tried to do it, and I eventually started to fail at being consistent. Consistency will lead me towards where I want to go. Maintaining focus and disciplining myself is what I should be doing.

So even though I’m a scrambled mess, I’m going to keep getting back up and try my very best.