I honestly thought I was going to be able to wake up to head to the gym. I really wanted to do my cardio intervals. The moment I got out of bed to step on the floor, I could feel my legs. Wow. I guess when your sore in your lower body you know you did a good workout. Despite me not being able to do heavy weights, I’m happy that I feel hurt.

I went to the bathroom only to find myself walking myself back to bed. Forget this. Off I went to go back to sleep. 9 hours of sleep felt amazing! I guess I was just so tired from the day before.

I’m supposed to be eating organic food. Not sure if I just should just order a smoothie though for today. I wanted to do a 24 hour water fast, but can’t yet because tomorrow my friend’s are treating me out as a late birthday treat. So, I’m not trying to overload when breaking a fast too quickly.


Intermittent Fasting: Day 1

I tried. I really did. I just feel really tired. I haven’t slept since 12AM because of going to the gym and then church and I’m at work at the present moment. It does not help that it’s cold outside. There is no heater in the store. I wanted to hold out until I got home to eat, but I think I’m going to break my fast. Actually, scratch that. I all ready ordered food.

I ordered pad thai, pineapple something, and 3 rolls of sushi. I’m probably going to regret this. Who knows? Intermittent fasting for me is just a way to control my calorie intake. Maybe I’m looking for something far more than just trying to lose weight. I do need more energy. I do want more clarity. I just know that I’m going to knock right out right when I get home. 8 more hours to go.

I need to buy batteries because I haven’t looked at a scale in months. Last time I checked I was 175. I’m hoping to get to 155 pounds by summer. I think it’s important to document my weight. Or rather maybe it’s important to keep track of what I eat. Someone told me to download some app. Who knows?


I was debating whether I should of done my workout before Church or after work. Wednesday I perform at Church at 4:15AM. Afterwards, I head straight to work to do my 12 hour shift from 7:30AM to 7PM. I chose to do it before.

I woke up at 11:30PM and ended up hitting the gym at 12:30AM. Early I know. I grabbed a drink of my preworkout while I was on the road. Just in time for it to kick in when I walked through the doors. My friend met up with me. There was only one other person there. I think I like nights. Maybe.

I went straight to the weights by myself. Let’s face it. When we are in the gym. The journey is on our own even if we have people with us. We are all facing our inner challenges and so I was doing just that. I had to do romanian deadlifts. Really? I don’t even know how to deadlift. Judging by my form I think I was doing well. My lower back was arching a little. Sucks.

Maybe a month from now I can lift heavier weights. Right now doesn’t seem like it’s my time to grind, but I push on. The worker at the gym talks to me. Interrupts my workout. He starts talking about religion and politics. I just want to finish up so I can head home and prepare for worship service.

My legs are wobbly. I’m not sure if I pushed hard enough. I think I should do that next time. But I was able to finish. I find myself looking up videos now to make sure I’m doing the right form and how to adjust so I am able to adapt.

Well to wrap things up, I gave my friend my creatine. I didnt’ realize that I had creatine in my preworkout. I’m not sure if I’m just getting fat, bigger muscles, or I just feel bloated especially in the face. Tomorrow and Friday is my rest day.


I woke up to the sound of my alarm. Snooze.

I woke up to the sound of my other alarm. I laid in bed in the dark contemplating whether I should get up. At this point, I decided to not make any excuses. I drank my usual pre-workout with a teaspoon of creatine. Actually, I was a little skeptical about the creatine because I have been paranoid that my face has been bloated since taking them.

I’ve done research and there are people who says that it has happend to them and others who say that it doesn’t cause it. I’m thinking this is all in my head. I head off to the gym. It’s cold outside, but I try to not let this deter me from continuing my training.

As I walk into the gym, I’m greeted by the front desk. Rather I had to say good morning in order for him to acknowledge my presence. There’s not many people at the gym at 4:40AM. What a relief. I walk to the dumbbells to start my workout routine.

I’m not sure if I know how to do shoulder workouts or proper form. I want to ask the person next to me, but he’s too busy making faces while doing his workout. I don’t want to feel like a total amateur so I continue with my workout. I’m honestly amazed how people can lift more than 30lbs. I can do 20lbs when doing my shoulders. What a let down!

I think that this program has me seeing where my weaknesses lie. I have a lot of them, but I do feel different. I’m nto sure if it’s just me but I feel like people are noticing it too. Oh well. Workout complete.

Jim Stoppani’s 12 Week Shortcut to SIZE: Day 1

I was debating whether I should quit Freeletics or not. I signed up for a gym membership and to pay for a subscription to use the app was nonsense. I liked the idea of having Freeletics on hand and being able to workout at the gym, from home, or just do my running. I saw no point in paying for two things so I had to look elsewhere.

I came across Jim Stoppani. I have to admit when I came across the program, I had no idea how to do it. I ended up just quitting the program before even starting it, but I was determined.

I woke up at 3:30AM to head to the gym. I didn’t arrive till around 4:30 where for the first time, I would be doing something totally different then what I was used to. To my surprise, I realized that I couldn’t lift heavy like I thought. Well, I wouldn’t say I can lift a lot of weight but the amount of weight I was lifting today was just sad.

People were looking at me, but I did not care. I was determined to go in there and finish the workout. There were some workouts where I had no idea what they were. Then I had to research them on Google to find out. Thank you Google! While working out my triceps though, I’ve noticed that my left triceps were hurting. I think it was because I was doing 80 pull-ups and 80 push-ups yesterday.

I feel fantastic! I hope I can continue!


How many times will it take to get to the center of the tootsie pop?

That was an old commercial that aired a long while ago. I never really understood it, and I still don’t understand it. But in a way, you can look at it as persistence.

We all know that achieving our dreams does not happen overnight. Rome was not built overnight. Athletes who become great and celebrities who become stars didn’t just happen overnight. They failed. They failed, but they kept trying. They tried different angles. They tried different strategies. No matter what they persisted on breaking through in doing things that most people wouldn’t do. We could do the things that great people could, but we prefer not to. We give up the moment we experience failure.

I, myself, give up. I expect results to happen immediately and when I do not get what I want. I tend to quit. Yet the beauty of being persistent is that you feel like you are one step closer. One step closer to becoming truly amazing. I wake up every single day knowing that just one more step allows me to reach where my own eyes can’t see. So if you’re struggling and if you feel like you are about to give up. Don’t. I haven’t so neither should you. I have experienced so much in life and to this day I am grateful that I am able to breathe. Breathing allows me to know that I still have a chance to accomplish something. To either make a difference within myself or to those around me.

20,000 Steps A Day

I’ve been trying to aim for 20,000 steps a day. Originally, I wanted to hit the recommended 10,000 steps but I wanted to do more. It’s actually a lot harder than it looks.

When I first started, I was able to do my running program but with the weather lately I haven’t been able to. I’ve been walking back and forth in the store trying to reach my goal.

I admit the hard part is trying to be consistent. You would think that hitting 20,000 steps is easy because all you do is walk but it’s not. Without keeping track of my steps, I usually hit just 3,000 steps per day which is awfully bad.

I’ve noticed that my legs started feeling heavy. Sometimes when I am walking my steps, I get a little wobbly. I think I’m losing more weight, but that could be a combination of the walking and the intermittent fasting. Who knows? What I do know is that when I stopped a whole week trying to reach my target goal, I felt a little less confident. I felt like I was slowly gaining my weight back or I wasn’t just myself. I felt more depressed and I lacked more focus.

What Have I Accomplished

I feel like my days are going faster than I realize. I feel like time is passing quickly without me keeping track of my progress in life. With me working around 12 hours per day at work, and a majority of the time is me sitting down waiting for customers. I wonder what am I doing with all this excess time that I have at the store. I could be more productive than ever, but there are times when I’m just pandering way too much. It doesn’t help that I’ve also been watching Netflix whenever I am bored.

We are always thinking that we have all the time in the world to get things done, but truth is time is limited. How do we interpret time? How do we measure it? Do we think of life as one long stretch? Or do we wake up each day thinking that we are reborn and try to live life a different way every single day?

I’m barely holding on, and the only way for me to get out of my situation is to focus on my debt. Having debt is like this huge heavy weight on your heart. It feels like you can’t breathe. It affects your relationships and it affects everything else you can imagine. So in order to get this weight off my shoulders, I need to eliminate what I can before I start investing in myself.

So far though, I’ve been very active on Facebook getting these customers in. It’s working. I should’ve done that from the start instead of taking my job for what it is. Sometimes I just need to take the initiative in order to make a business more successful.

Losing Weight Intermittent Fasting

I’ve been intermittent fasting for a couple of weeks. Usually, I would only eat within a 4 hour window and then the rest of the day I would just drink water. There were some occasions when I would eat and then I would eat at night which would mean I broke my fast for that day. Yet I’m here writing to let you know I don’t feel like I’m gaining any weight at all. Actually, I feel that I’m still losing weight regardless. I feel fantastic!

I go to the gym when I can, but I think I’m going to start wearing shirts and never look at my body definition until like a year later. I want to base it off on how I feel instead. For those are still losing weight from intermittent fasting, let me know when you first started.

Day 5 of Intermittent Fasting: Different Time

Today is actually my fifth day of trying intermittent fasting. For the past couple of days I’ve been fasting of 20 hours each day and breaking my fast from 6PM to 10PM. But for whatever reason I decided to break it an hour ago at 3PM by ordering some sushi. I was doing really well, but I’m hoping that if I stick to the 4 hour window I’ll still be fasting. (For those who have been doing IF for a while, please let me know.)

I think while I’ve been fasting I’ve been more aware of things. I think I am more conscious of my surroundings and more awake if that makes sense. I have more energy when I start my day and I’m not tired until I get home ready for bed. Maybe part of that has to deal with the fact that I’ve been trying to do 20,000 steps each day or trying to reach that amount. Right now, I am currently around 14,500 steps for today.

When I first attempted intermittent fasting, I was very skeptical of it. Actually, I don’t think I’ve stuck with IF for more than a day. I’d usually quit and just binge thinking it was useless. While on my fast, I don’t get to eat healthy yet because I can’t afford it. Seriously, I am struggling so much that I can’t even make my own meals so my girlfriend’s parents has been helping. My main goal is to discipline myself because I seriously lack it. So hoping tomorrow, I can get back on schedule with just eating form 6PM to 10PM.

A lot of people choose intermittent fasting for the sole purpose of trying to lose body fat. Even though that is my goal still, I think my primary focus is just trying to feel better. Trying to have more energy throughout the day without having to pop caffeine pills to keep awake. Thankfully walking has been able to keep me awake as well.

I wonder how I’ll feel after 30 days with the combination of my running intervals, calisthenics, intermittent fasting, and 20,000 steps each day. I’m turning 30 next month, but now when I look in the mirror I feel amazing. I wonder how I’ll a week from now or even a year.

I’m not really sure if intermittent fasting is the cure all for everything but I am also hoping that it will help with my anxiety. I get lots of anxiety where I feel uncomfortable around people sometimes. I also tend to get in a random mood swings from time to time. So many things that I want to work on but I’m hoping that this will lead to greater accomplishments down the line.

So have you tried intermittent fasting? How long have you been doing it? Any advice? They say everyone experiences fasting in different ways so I guess I’ll keep writing every other day when I can.